Encounter

               Women's Encounter                                May 7, 2017

Guilt, guilt, and more guilt

A while before this encounter I was holding onto somethings that I realized weren't even mine to begin with. It was something so easily important, I dealt with most of my life.

REJECTION

Rejection as a baby
Rejection as a child
Rejection as an adolescent
Rejection as an adult

The devil tried to latch on a luggage that wasn't my burden to bare, or even my fault at all.
I held guilt for it, because I thought for awhile it was my fault things turned a way. That I should have done better to help her.

BUT unfortunately for the devil I found and knew my identity in Christ Jesus. Holy Spirit reminded me of my worth and God supported, uplifted and continued to guide me. 

The Encounter

Rejection &&. Guilt
I thought I fully forgave and already let go of what God had already done a clean slate.
...But I hadn't
That was due to others judgement. I was afraid I was going to be looked at wronged. Assumed just because I am friendly and super nice at times. My church will think I am a fake person.
2014's Awakening Conference with Filadelfia Church in Van Nuys, California.
Changed everything for me. I repeatedly told God that I did not want to be seen as a fake person. ( That is how I generally felt some people seen me as)

***As of some of you probably reading this, maybe thinking. "Well she probably was doing something​ fake"
I kid you not it was the devil putting in lies, as well of myself esteem and self confidence to believe in such ridiculous things***

-Perspective
But in this case it was " A Goody two shoe "
Obviously, nothing is wrong with it, but I never claimed I was perfect and just. Still aren't today, still growing and learning in that.
At this last encounter I was filled with His joy, and every chain was broken that was upon my back.
There was this very important realization,  and was
" THE ONLY OPINION THAT REALLY MATTERS IS GOD'S OPINION "
Upon that I looked back at my previous choices and seen how easily I made my passed mistakes. In that all is forgiven, forgotten and earsed!

He gave me His Joy that day, and I received His Peace.
It's all in perspective, His Perspective.

My Past is my past, I no longer live there!
                             I A M R E D E E M E D!

There is this perfect moment I wanted to keep. If I could draw it I would. Only if I had a photographic memory.
It happens at the end..
Its personally for you and personally for you to experience. Each encounter is different, each time and each person. 
Experiencing His presents is something to delight IN.
You'll never want to know what was life without Him
Invite Him, I dare you.
By all means it was beautiful and I felt high as in flying.
Even floating and swimming at the same time.

Don't fall short, and lay in what chains and mistakes your Father has already forgotten and forgave you of. Especially if you realized them yourself and repented and no longer have the urge to go down the same road over and over again. 
The devil calls you by sin, BUT GOD YOUR FATHER CALLS YOU BY NAME! 

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" Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are Mine. When you go through deep water, I will be with you." ISAIAH 43:1-2

" But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God's possession so that you may proclaim the virtues of the one who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light" 1 PETER 2:9